Eyes of ice.
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, June 21st, 2013 at 01:04 PM (21227 Views)
nearly 8 months ago I discovered through my husband of 14 years attempt at suicide he'd sexually abused my oldest daughter. I've experienced grief on the deepest levels imaginable. Depression .. And my own want for death ... But through healing. Counselling ... Learning and the unconditional love for my children I'm slowly on my way back ... I'm changed yes ... But a work in motion and I don't expect much anymore.
Ive lost much trust and instinct through this but i still have some hope through my hopelessness. Through my loneliness. Through my dark feeling sorry for myself. My anger at being betrayed. My feelings of guilt at not knowing or sensing anything ... Protecting my daughter. I feel violated on every level. Well there it all is. I'm all cried out .. I've got nothing more ...